Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I got sick the day AFTER christmas.

Thank goodness.
That would have been the WORST Christmas present EVER if I had gotten sick on the day. But, luckily (but not so pleasantly) I got sick the night after.

But that's not what this post is supposed to be about.
Christmas really awesome. Bryan and I spent the weekend with his family and I got to take part in some classic family traditions and in some new ones!
Every Christmas Eve, Bryan's grandparents (dad's side) go caroling to some of their neighbors. It was actually when we got engaged last year! So, of course we had to go again. It was so fun being on the Oyler's front step again and being with my husband who went from being my boyfriend to my fiance 1 year ago that night. That was the best Christmas present ever :)
After that, my mother-in-law initiated the first of the 2 new traditions.
We had a shepherd's dinner. Bread, cheese, summer sausage, and grapes. Yeah, it wasn't exactly what shepherds in Israel would have had, but we did what we could. Unleavened bread isn't very good and we had to have some sort of balance to our meal. But, the cool part was that we didn't use any technology to make anything (we bought the bread. yeah, we kinda cheated). It was simple, but even with the meagerness of the meal, I felt full at the end.
Then, we went on to the second of the new traditions. Michael McLean wrote a children's book of his story, The Forgotten Carols. It comes with a cd that has the songs and a narration by Brother McLean himself! So, we turned out the lights, lit some candles, and we sat and followed along with the book and listened to some of all our favorite Christmas songs.
Then, we continued with... well, traditional traditions lol
My father-in-law read from 3 Nephi 1; the account of Christ's birth as recorded by prophets in the America's. It was a sweet reminder of the greatness of His glory and the simplicity of His greatness.
Then, we all got to open our pajamas from Santa!
My pants were zebra print (of course!) and Bryan's were blue flannel. I helped Santa pick them out. ;)
We watched It's a Wonderful Life, which is different for me because my family always watched White Christmas. But, I still love that film. It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside whenever I watch it. It's also Bryan's favorite movie.
Well, the time came when we all (who were staying the night at Mom and Dad's) had to get crammed in the basement so we wouldn't see what Santa brought.
So it started...
All of us girls (Eliza, Leah, and I) were to sleep in Liza's room and the boys (Bryan and Matthew, his brother) were to sleep in the play room outside of Liza's room. This is all part of the basement.
Liza and I wanted to try and pull and all-nighter, so we played The Game of Life until about 3 AM. Bryan was stealing money and Life tiles, Matthew was mad that he had the lowest salary, Leah was in the most debt, Liza was taking money from Bryan because he kept trying to not pay his debts, and I ended up winning even with only 2 Life tiles. It was funny.
Then Leah and I talked til about 5 AM.
Then we got up at 7 AM.
We prayed with Mom and Dad, took a picture on the stairs, then went to our stockings.
Bryan got a rubberband gun and a car kit. I got cookie sheets and my pizza stone. We got more, but I hate talking about Christmas gifts... Weird, I know. But I almost feel selfish because it's like "Look what **I** got!" Meh. Well, Bryan got the cinematographer's manual, some money, a Barnes and Noble gift card, Toy Story 3, Beauty and the Beast, 3:10 to Yuma, and recipes. I got some moccosin slippers, a necklace, some earrings, a shirt, a skookie pan, and we both got a book about Joseph Smith. I think that's everything...
Anyway, we went and saw Aub, Chad, and the kids. Hayden was shooting free throws. He's 2. Yeah. Bella was being shy for some reason. She's funny. It was good to see my sister. I missed her.
Then we went and had breakfast with Bryan's family and Grandma and Grandpa O. It was delicious, as always :)
This year, we didn't shoot our gingerbread houses. We didn't have any ammo for Bryan's bb gun :(
We spent the afternoon napping and playing games and watching movies. Then we went to Gma and Gpa O's house for dinner and the cousin gift exchange. It's always fun seeing that side of the family. Plus, the food is awesome :)
Then, we went back home to watch The Queen, our gift to Bryan's mom. I really liked it.
Then bed.
Sunday, we spent time with my sisters and then went to our friend Christmas party. That's when I started feeling sick.
I got pains in my lower back and down the backs of my legs and in my knees. It hurt to sit, to stand, to walk, to do anything really. Except lay down. Let's just say, I didn't do much. I felt bad. But, Bryan and I got the movie Inception during the White Elephant gift exchange. That was cool.
But that night wasn't.
I was in so much pain.
It hurt to move the next morning.
I didn't go to work.
This morning wasn't so bad. I've been taking pain meds regularly. But I've been coughing and sneezing for 2 days straight. Hopefully, this all lets up soon.

Friday, December 24, 2010

In honor of Christmas...

This is my little "gift" to you!
These clips are from my second favorite Christmas movie of all time, The Muppet Christmas Carol (the first being White Christmas with Bing Crosby and Danny Kaye).

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Our First Christmas :)

Okay, I know it's a little early. But, hey! We wanted our OWN little Christmas with just the two of us.

It started off with us talking about our family's traditions. Turns out, they're pretty similar. Except my family's Christmas morning is a little more intense than his, but his family's Christmas Eve is an all-out program compared to mine.
But that's not the point.
So, we talked it out and decided we wanted to sing one of our favorite Christmas songs (we did mine this year). Then we would read Luke 2. Then, we would turn on the music and open presents!
This year, we sang "It Came Upon the Midnight Clear." I don't know why, but I've always loved that song. I guess that this song just personifies how I imagined that sacred night to be.
The world in solemn stillness lay to hear the angels sing
Love it.
What I loved even more was that Bryan totally doesn't know the words :) lol. It was awesome. And made me giggle. While trying to play the piano. It was eventful, LEMME TELL YA.
Then we read from Luke 2.
It was such a sweet reminder of the TRUE meaning of Christmas. I'm so grateful for my Savior and his willingness to come to this earth to teach us and save us.
Then... We opened presents!
I made Bryan open all his presents first (that spoiled boy). I got him a sweater from Express, new warm-up pants (Adidas. For free. From work. Woot!), and some business socks ;) (See my playlist to understand why it is so funny).
Then, I opened my present.
Bryan got me a GORGEOUS jewelry box! I love it! I've needed one for a while. I've been keeping all my jewelry in a little Victoria's Secret bag. Let's just say, it wasn't very... Good. Yeah. Everything was all crazy and mixed up and sometimes would end up sad looking because it was all smashed in the bag.
But my NEW jewelry box was EXACTLY what I wanted/needed. I love my hubby :)

Pictures to come!
Merry CHRISTmas

Sunday, December 19, 2010


Well, Bryan was denied from BYU's film program.
I cried.
My husband held me, and I cried.

I used to like moving... And change... But after living in Arizona for so many years and then living in Idaho for so many years, and now starting to get used to Provo... I'm not liking change so much anymore.

But Bryan may not stay at BYU.
I may not get accepted to BYU.

do we go back to Idaho?
Do we move to Salt Lake?
Do we try Southern Utah?
Do we just make a movie?
Do we write our book?
Do I go back to school?
What will we study?
Where will we go?

While I cried, I just sat in my state of confusion. I didn't really think about anything; I just cried.
But then, I leaned forward and said a silent prayer: "Father, I'm trusting you. We'll pray and ponder and study out our options, but I am trusting you to take care of us until then."
I felt peace come over me.
Even in all my confusion and worry, God still came though and touched my heart. He always does.
I know God lives and that Jesus is the Christ. They love us so much. I pray for their protection and for their forgiveness daily, so that I can try and become more like them.

So, like I said, we may be moving soon. We may not. At this point, I don't really know what God has in store for us or why we are here, but I'm trusting Him.
At this point, I kind of hope that we don't have to move. I like our little apartment and I will miss our friends that we have grown close to. But, I guess I could find that enjoyment in change that I used to have. Change is good. Maybe we just need change.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

I can't help but think I don't deserve this

I feel like God is blessing Bryan and I so much.

Most of the time, I feel like I don't deserve it.

But then it reminds me that I have an all-knowing, kind, generous, and loving Heavenly Father who truly wants the best for me.

I feel like every day I have something new to thank Him for. I fall on my knees and with tears, I thank Him for how wonderful and gracious He is.

I got my promotion yesterday. The extra money that I will be making will allow Bryan and I to go on a little trip for our 1 year anniversary AND I will probably be able to pay for school.

I found out that I will be able to apply for graduation in the summer.

He's looking out for me.

Monday, December 13, 2010

So, I realize...

That posting YouTube videos shouldn't really count as a post... But I do it anyway. BUAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!! :)

Anyway, I will be posting again soon because I have fun little pictures of our cute Christmas tree and decor to put up! YAY FOR CHRISTMAS! Only 14 days! WOOT!!!

Bryan and I were texting each other these lyrics...

So, I thought I'd share :)

I love my cute hubby <3

Monday, December 6, 2010

This was too cute to pass up!

So, I saw this on Annie's facebook page. It's so stinkin' cute! But it's also so tender and sweet. Truly, the simplest and most powerful testimonies come from children. They are not corrupted and they are blind to the world. They only know God and his love for them.

I am so grateful this holiday season for my Savior, Jesus Christ. He lives and loves us! I know this to be true.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

So it's official...

Won't be going back to AZ for Christmas :( Sad day...

But I'm looking on the bright side:
ALL of Bryan's family is going to be here for Christmas!!! WOOT-DIGGITY!!! I really do love my in-laws. I especially miss Bryan's sister and her hubby. We spent a lot of time with them when we were dating in Idaho and now we don't get to see them much, so it's always so much fun when they come down!!!

Also, my whole family won't be together this year, anyway. I mean, Aubrey's fam isn't going because she doesn't want to travel while 8 months pregnant, and I think one of my other sisters is with her in-laws this year, too (not sure which, but I thought I heard something along those lines).

ANYWAY, total change of subject.

My last post was short.
I spent most of Friday night bawling my eyes out.
Partly because I couldn't sleep (didn't end up falling asleep until about 4 a.m.), but the rest was because I got REEEEEALLLY homesick :( Not a happy place to be. It was like I reached the tipping point that night and it just overwhelmed me! Like... Oh, I don't know... There are really no words that can describe it. It overwhelmed me so much that it made me sick on Saturday and I ended up leaving work early because I felt like I was going to throw up or pass out.
Then I came home.
Red faced and dry-eyed because there were no more tears...
Bryan pulled me to the couch and told me to tell him about it.

And I went loose.

Bawled, again, for hours.

But I am so grateful for my husband. He really does complete me. He helped me look at my problems from the outside and really assess what I was feeling.
I love him so much :)

One of my favorite songs that I like to sing to Bryan when he's discouraged.
I almost sang it at our luncheon, but I knew I was going to ball when I gave my speech, so I just decided to fight my tears with just words and not with song lol.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Late Night

I can't sleep. Things have been going great, until tonight.
Lots of tears.

That's all I can say.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

David Letterman - Steve Carell vs. Mark Wahlberg

Good laugh. I love Steve Carell

Sunday, November 28, 2010

So, I kinda miss MY family.

I really love my husband's side. They're so awesome and kind and fun and generous and... Just downright AWESOME. I have the greatest in-laws ever, to be completely honest.

But this Thanksgiving, I really missed my family. When I hugged my little sister, it made me wish that she wasn't the only sibling I would be hugging this year. But, alas, it is quite expensive driving to Arizona. I miss it... A lot. Especially right now. I wish I could walk outside without needing to wear snow boots. I wish I could still picnic. I didn't think that being in actual winter climate would be so bad, but... Yeah. Just not my cup of cocoa.

I really miss my mom. And my dad. Being far away AND recently married is totally stinky. Why? Because not only am I a 12 hour drive from my parents, but I have no money to make that drive. We're barely living paycheck-to-paycheck as is.

But Thanksgiving was really good this year, overall. We had so much fun with Bryan's family and with our friends. I was really sad when Kylie had to leave on Friday instead of staying the whole weekend, but that's okay. I got over it.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Time to just be THANKFUL :)

I thought I would start of this Thanksgiving week by expressing open gratitude

I'm grateful for:
  • My life
  • My cute hubby
  • My family
  • My friends
  • My bed
  • My zebra print bedspread :)
  • My homemade bows (that I want to make more of)
  • My bathroom
  • My new curling iron
  • My job
  • My books
  • Stay-at-home date night
  • Seeing movies with my friends
  • Having totally awesome girlfriends
  • The temple
  • My calling
  • My visiting teaching companion
  • My visiting teach-ee's
  • The Ensign
  • President Thomas S. Monson
  • The Quorum of the Twelve Apostles
  • My bishop and his wife :)
  • My baptismal covenants
  • The opportunity to worship freely
  • Prayer
  • Fasting
  • Scripture study
  • Music
  • Goals
  • Treats
  • Make-shift meals that end up being really tasty
  • Communication by email and facebook (it's dumb, I know, but I am grateful for it)
  • What I believe to be true: God lives, Jesus is the Christ and the Savior of the world. His atonement makes it possible for all things such as eternal families, forgiveness, the priesthood, and so many other things that come through Him. The Holy Ghost resides with us, in our worthiness, and guides us to do what is right. I love my Father in Heaven. Lately I have seen his hand in my life and realized that he knows me by name.
That's just a small list, but I think that's all I can put into words right now.


Saturday, November 13, 2010

It's hard to be happy today.

My high school dance coach had a little girl. Her name was Savanna. She was so beautiful and was 7 months old. Now she's gone. I wish I could hug Tabby. I wish I could be with her right now.

It's times like these that I wish I could cry out my testimony to everyone that I love, but it's times like these when it's scary for me. So, I'm saying now that I know that God lives and he loves ALL his children. I know that those children who leave this life before the age of accountability are sent straight to His side to be in His comfort until their parents come in righteousness to raise them. I know that families can be forever through the atonement of Jesus Christ and through the sealing power of the temple.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I need to do some venting...

Okay, so it's not ANGRY venting. I just need to openly talk about how I feel....

So, my boss (the owner of the store I work at) is kind of crazy. Well, he's like a good person, just not the best boss in the world. As in, he curses at us, gets mad easily ( like REALLY easily ) and I just feel like he doesn't express himself very well.
Anyway, so I get guilt tripped REALLY easily. Like, if you tell me that you didn't like the sandwich I made you for lunch that day, I'll feel bad about it for like three days. No joke. I'm serious.
So, my boss called our store three times today and I was involved in some way or other with all those calls and he cursed TO me (not at me, but TO me) twice in one sentence. Yeah. Sometimes I wish I could tell him that I don't appreciate his cursing, but he's kinda scary. So, continuing, he called two more times upset, and then he sent me a kinda angry email. It was only one line, but as I read it, I could hear him saying it and that didn't help at all.
So, the reason why I need to vent is because I hate crying over how my boss treats me. And the thing is, I know he doesn't realize how all of us feel about it because all of us just put a face on in front of him and then when he leaves, we all basically break down in whatever way we do. Personally, I end up crying and ranting to my husband. It's never good. And then I have nightmares about it. Dead serious. Nightmares. About work. never good.
I just pray everyday that God will touch my boss's life that way he can have some peace and have a good head when things go wrong. I literally pray for him BY NAME. I'm just glad that God answers my prayers. But it's still hard on those days when my boss doesn't let the spirit touch him and he just... GOES. :(
Sad day.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I've picked my try-out piece!!!

So, I've decided to try out for music scholarships at UVU and BYU to help my chances at getting accepted to either school and I've picked a classical piece to perform!

This version is a duet, but in the solo I would just sing all of it by myself (obviously! it's a SOLO.)

Anyway, I give you "Time To Say Goodbye" composed by Quarantotto/Sartori, performed by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman


Monday, November 1, 2010

Mailbag to begin the "Thankful" season :)

Dear hubby,
Thank you for writing me cute little love notes! I love you.
Love, wifey

Dear Work,
Thanks for giving me so many hours this next week. Although I'm very tired, I'm glad that I'm staying busy.
Love, me

Dear Fall,
Thanks for coming back after those couple of days of snow. I missed you. You know that you're my favorite time of year, right? Just so beautiful... :)
Love, Me

Dear God,
Thanks for making me feel better all the time.
Love, Your daughter

Dear Puffs Extra Strong Tissues,
Thank you for being on sale at Wal-Mart so I could partake in your comforting goodness. You have surely soothed my running nose :)
Much love, me

Dear Car,
Don't give up! We'll be fixing you soon! You've done so good!
Love, Bryan and Kelsey

Dear Piano,
This whole me-not-playing thing is going to be stopping soon because of that whole audition thing I've got going on in the winter. I'm coming back soon.
Love, me

Dear Bed,
Make room! I'm coming in!
Love, me

Thursday, October 28, 2010

I'm trying to find something to blog about....

... but nothing is really coming to me right now, so I'm just going to start unloading onto this post for a moment:

She never really knew what it was going to be like until it happened. She had heard stories for years; some good, many horrible. It was something that was exciting for the first few months of the engagement and became ordinary for the last few. Then, it came.
That morning, Kelsey woke up early--really early. She opened her eyes quickly and wide, taking in every bit of light that was in that room. 3:30 am seemed so early before today. Now, it just seemed moments before she would be leaving for the hairstylist, make-up artist, and then to the temple. Sitting up was just as easy as opening her eyes, surprisingly. As she jolted up, she turned to her left where her best friend and bride's maid slept soundly. Amy apparently didn't feel a thing. The little bit of light that was glowing in the room came from Kelsey's cell phone that lay screen up on the nightstand next to the bed. She grabbed it and wondered whether or not Bryan would be awake. He'll get it when he wakes up, if anything, she thought to herself and sent her thumbs typing:
Don't forget to get to the temple early for pictures. I love you.
After finishing, she watched the screen as it glowed red with white writing that told her the progress of her message's travel.
Okay, she thought to herself, what to do now... As she contemplated what might be a good activity for the next two hours, the screen of her phone gave a purple hue to the room. Already? she thought as she reached over to pick up her phone. The name "Honey" glowed on the screen as she opened the text:
I know, baby. I love you, too.
It made her glad to know that she wasn't the only one that couldn't sleep that night and she wondered if she would ever be able to catch up as she began to text back and forth with her soon-to-be husband for the next hour and a half.
Six in the morning came too soon. Kelsey slowly got out of bed, packed those things she wouldn't need today, dressed, and left to her hairdresser's house.
Daye was the only one awake as Kelsey walked up to the house and waited for the door to be unlocked. As she opened the door, Kelsey's 2nd oldest sister looked a little stressed and tired. Did she lose sleep as well? Kelsey felt a little guilty after her thought of relief as, once again, she was not the only one.
"Go sit down and let me get my stuff," said Daye as she walked upstairs to get the curling iron and other such things to do Kelsey's hair. Kelsey walked past the stairs directly into the kitchen where Daye's small in-home single hair station was set up. As Kelsey sat down, she examined herself in the vanity mirror. I don't look like a bride... Or feel like one, at that. Daye came bustling down the stairs and plugged in the iron and set down various pins and such.
"How are you feeling?" she said and placed her hands on Kelsey's shoulders, lowering her face by Kelsey's ears.
"Tired," Kelsey said, honestly. "I didn't get much sleep last night; about 4 hours or so..." And Daye began her magic. Kelsey always loved getting her hair done by her big sister. Daye ALWAYS seemed to do it just right. About half way through, someone came through the door. Kelsey looked into the mirror and saw her brother, Adam, walking in with a camera.
"So, I'm just going to get a few shots of you getting your hair done and we'll do a mini interview type thing and then I'll head over and do the same at Bryan's," Adam began as he crouched down and placed the camera to his eye. He filmed Daye, Kelsey's bouncing foot, and asked Kelsey how she was doing. Kelsey was already feeling redundant as she repeated what she had just told Daye not a half hour before.
After Adam left, Daye finished. Kelsey looked in the mirror and thought out loud, "It's perfect. I love it." It was elegant and exactly what she imagined and more. While they were trying to decide where to place Kelsey's veil, the door opened again and this time not so quietly.
Dawn and Aubrey came bustling into the kitchen, make-in hand and half singing, "Happy Wedding Day!" The compliments began to soar about Daye's work and Kelsey's three oldest sisters began gibbering about what to do next.
"How are you wearing your veil?"
"Do you want it here?"
"Where is it best?"
"Where do YOU want it?"
"Just tell us where you want it!"
And she snapped.
"Why are you crying?!" Dawn said as she dabbed at Kelsey's cheeks.
Kelsey burst into tears and she didn't know why. Aubrey, who had been applying Kelsey's make up, began scrambling for a tissue as to save her recent work on Kelsey's base.
"Is it your veil? Are you stressed?" said Daye, again laying her hands on Kelsey's shoulders.
"Did you sleep okay?" Aubrey said as she began to dab at Kelsey's tear-stricken face.
"I'm just really tired," Kelsey whispered with more tears rolling.
"Okay," Daye said, picking up Kelsey's veil again, "Let's put it here. Is that alright?" Daye placed the comb of the birdcage veil behind Kelsey's bangs and let the cage fall over the perfectly done french roll.
"Okay," Kelsey mustered without shedding another tear.
Aubrey finished Kelsey's make-up and as she left, Kelsey was hugged by her big sisters. "We'll see you at the temple," Dawn whispered into Kelsey's ear.
Back at her parents' house, Kelsey got into her wedding dress. The drive to Mesa was an hour long and she didn't know how much time she would have to get ready once they got there. She made sure to eat breakfast and then walked into her mom's room.
Dad was gone (where he went, Kelsey had no idea) and Mom was in the bathroom.
"Mom?" Kelsey whispered as she walked in. "Are you ready?"
"Hi beautiful." Kelsey's mom said as she looked at her daughter.

Okay, idk if I can finish that right now... To be continued...

Sunday, October 24, 2010


So, we filmed this weekend and it was a FREAKIN' BLAST!!! It was different for me because last time we made a movie together, I was acting. This time, I was part of the crew and it was just as much fun if not MORE fun! I loved being in that environment and I loved seeing my cute hubby in his element. I was so grateful for everyone who came and helped, too. There was SUCH a good turn-out and we got it done ahead of schedule. Good times. Great oldies. Pics coming soon; just one pic, actually. We never really got around to taking tons of pictures, but if anything I want to post the final movie on here for my readers' enjoyment... For those of you who actually read my blog... Which there are not very many, but NONETHELESS! I am grateful :)
I wore my Jack Skelington dress to church today in honor of Halloween (see picture from honeymoon for what I am talking about). Sharon noticed it and made me feel cool :)
I should be hearing back about my job interview sometime this week. I need to buck up the courage and talk to my manager about my hours because if I don't get this other job, I need to get a new job altogether... Which scares me... A lot.

Monday, October 18, 2010

More pics?!!! Who knew!

So, turns out that Bryan put my birthday pictures on the desktop computer rather than the laptop. Go figure.



Bryan was holding the camera and singing to me. This was my (cup)cake :)

Oh man. Update. Much needed.

It's been a while since I've been on. I know I'm terrible, but HEY! I have a life, too!!! Not that I'm telling people who blog regularly that they don't have lives because then they wouldn't have anything to blog about. Right. Anyway.

So, Update:
Bryan got the job at LDS Motion Picture Studios! WOOT DIGGITY!!! It's just been fabulous and stinkin' amazing for him (and for me because now he has something he likes to do and he's not complaining as much. Poor guy, I didn't put up with it very well). He works in the camera/equipment check-out room where he basically does what I just said: checks out cameras/equipment. BUT, lucky for him, he works under the DP -- that's Director of Photography; took me about a week or so to figure it out, so I thought I'd clarify to those that were reading so you wouldn't have to look at that sentence a million time's trying to figure out what "DP" meant. You're welcome.
ANYWAY, so George is DP which means if he needs help on set, my cute hubby gets to go and help. YEAH! WAY COOL! He's gotten to go on set twice already and it's just been awesome for him and he's in heaven on those days. I love him so much.

I took tours at both UVU and BYU and I haven't really gotten a good idea about either school. I'm planning on meeting with advisors soon and then I hope to decide which school I'd rather go to. I plan on trying out for scholarships in the winter and hopefully that will pull and whether or not I get accepted. If I don't, then I'll just continue working and supporting my cute hubby until I get another opportunity to go to school (whenever that will be).

I had the most wonderful experience last week that made me realize how important it is to have faith in our savior, Jesus Christ. He will take care of us. It isn't a matter of maybe, but a matter of, "Am I going to let him suffer more than he already has by doubting him?" God takes care of all his children. We need to have faith and know that the atonement is real. We need to believe Christ when he says, "Take my yoke upon thee, and I shall give thee rest." I can do anything through the mercy and love of God and Christ. They love me and they help me continue on through life.

Now, PICTURES!!! They're like, really late, but here they are!
Disneyland! Day 1 of Honeymoon

Disneyland, Day 2!

LA temple, Day 4

One of Bryan's pictures from on set for the extended scenes of "Joseph Smith: the Prophet"

Sorry for those of you who wanted to see pics of my bike. Apparently, our camera erased ALL of the pictures from my birthday. Yes, ALL of them. :( *sniffles......

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Mailbag. Yes, I'm doing it again.

Dear Mailbag,
I agree with Annie when I say, thank you for being so easy to do when just writing a post is so difficult to do.
Love, Me

Dear Bike,
Thank you for coming into my life! I'm now having motivation to do something constructive with my life! But why are your handlebars loose? I can't avoid all those bumps in the road so you'll just have to suck it up and keep straight.
Love, Me

Dear Mail,
Thank you for bringing me all of my birthday cards. You should keep this up. It makes me feel very special :)
Love, Me

Dear Purse,
I should probably clean you out. You've been getting really crowded lately and most of the time I can't find my wallet... That's a problem. So, be expecting a little visit from the cleaning fairy soon.
Love, Cleaning Fairy

Dear Halloween,
You should start telling stores to put out costumes for adults! You're my favorite holiday and this is the first year I haven't had a costume in mind before my birthday. I need some help here!
Thanks! Me

Ps Halloween, come faster :)

Dear Gas Prices,
Why are you so high? Don't you realize how often I go up to Bountiful to visit my family? I can't keep doing that if I can't afford getting there... Geez...
Love, Me

Dear Hair,
Why don't you figure out how to 'do' yourself? You're such a pain!
Love, Me

Monday, September 6, 2010

Burton is here! (And other news)

Well, my new nephew was born this morning! WELCOME TO THE WORLD, BURTON RILEY! Man, I already love him and I've only seen a picture of him on my phone! He has my side's nose. Classic trait of all my nieces and nephews. And he's got a little bit of DARK hair. I can't wait to see him in person! Which probably won't be until like... Next year, but I'm still super excited!
Well, My birthday is coming up on Thursday. I know Bryan got me shoes, but I honestly have no idea what they might be... And then on Saturday, there was a big box dropped off on our doorstep. And I mean, BIG. It's almost as tall as I am!!! I honestly have no idea what it could be. And, when I don't know what things are, I get worried. Yeah, I'm worried. But if I have no idea, I almost get scared because I don't know if I'll like it or not... But I trust my sweet husband :)
So, I had this dream and I choreographed this AMAZING jazz dance to "Hide and Seek" by Imogen Heap (see my playlist). I want to make it REALITY! We'll see what happens

Monday, August 30, 2010

So, I'm taking a little dose of Annie in my life...

My dear friend from BYU-I, Annie, does this thing called a mailbag. I'm going to take a stab at it. If it fails, I shall never do it again! If it's not so bad... I still may never do it again lol.

Dear birthday shoes,
I know that Bryan wants to wait and give you to me on my birthday, but I really want to see you. So, me thinks you should just come out of your little packaging and we'll start our beautiful friendship.
Love, Me

Dear BYU,
Thank you for accepting my husband. But NO THANKS for declining me. But, I thought you should know that I'm going to try applying ONE MORE TIME! YES! I WON'T BE STRICKEN DOWN SO EASILY!!!
Love, Me

Dear BYU Film and Media Job Guys,
I just thought you should know that you suck. :)
Love, Me

Dear New Navy Nike Jacket,
Thank you for sneaking into one of our orders so I could have you for free. You're very warm and very comfy. I have a feeling we'll be hanging out a lot.
Love, Me

Dear Pay Check,
Please come to me faster. I have to pay rent Wednesday.
Love, Me

Dear BYU-I Class Registration,
Please open up some of your classes again. I only have 9 credits until I get my AA degree. It would help me out a lot.
Love, Me

Dear Laziness,
Love, Me

Dear bed,
You and I both know that I need to stop sleeping with you so much. Yes, I do enjoy sleeping in til 9:30, but this has GOT to stop.
Love, Me

Okay, Annie... how'd I do?

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Some inspiration on Sunday morning

My sister sent this to me in an email. It really impacted me. I thought I'd share it with you.

"This painting was unique from its very beginning. It would be great if I could take credit for the composition and message it conveys but in my mind, that would be like Moses taking credit for bring water from the stone in the desert.

"Usually when I have an idea for a painting it starts as a simple seed and it grows as I play with the image in my mind, moving the characters around, imagining the lights and shadows, the values and the colors, eventually deciding on its composition after what might be weeks or even months of pondering and sketches, but this painting was different. There was no seed, no moving of characters, it was totally different.

"I was sitting in church on a Sunday afternoon as the Sacrament was being passed and bang, there it was, the image was instantaneously placed before my mind's eye just as you see it here. This experience has happened to me only three times and it has been very special each time."


Saturday, August 14, 2010


First off, I just want to thank all of those who have been praying for Bryan and I over the last few days. Bryan received emails back from BOTH the jobs he applied for informing him that he will know by the end of next week whether or not he has an interview.
We went to the Provo temple on Friday night for our date night. It was just wonderful to sit in the peace and beauty that is the Lord's house. Bryan and I are really starting to feel that we could start our wedding video business. Bryan has been very diligent with his research and we have worked together with coming up with prices and packages. I really feel like this could work, and I know that it is partially because we have such a loving Heavenly Father that wants us to find JOY IN THE JOURNEY!
I'm starting to get used to the idea of staying at Scoreboard. It works, ya know? Good pay, good coworkers. Yeah, it's going to be stressful, but that's just work. I think that, once Bryan starts making money as well, if I join a dance studio or find a voice teacher, I'll be able to really let go of my stresses.
I got a new calling a few weeks ago; Relief Society music coordinator/assistant pianist. I'm actually really excited. It's getting me back into the groove of playing the piano. It's good to just let go for an hour or two every week (I should probably play more, but I'm a terrible person).

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Now that I've realized that Vee is the only one who reads my blog...

I just giggle :)
I enjoy writing here, but I don't feel like I do it often enough.
I think God is trying to tell me to stick to Scoreboard because I think I'm getting a promotion. My manager, assistant manager, and I have been talking and when we move into our new store, I'll become the Team Rep for our store. That's kind of a big responsibility, but it comes with a raise... So, yeah. I think I can do it. I'm trying to come up with better organization methods NOW while I have the chance so by the time we move, I can move with full force!
Bryan applied for a few new jobs! I'm just so excited! I really hope he gets one of them. They would help so much with his schooling and his future career in film.
We've been married for 2 months TODAY! Which means, sadly... THANK YOU CARDS. Man, they're annoying! I feel like I'm writing the same thing on every card! How many ways are there to say "Thank you?"
-Thank you
-Thanks so much
That's all I got... Yeah, my cards and really varied.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Stewing thoughts...

Well, third time's the charm--but this charm SUCKED. Yes, for the third time, BYU denied me. I cried. My husband held me, and I cried. I want to go to school so bad. I'm pretty much jealous that Bryan gets to go and sit in classrooms and soak up lectures and learn so much, while I go and sit in the back of a hot sports store and slave day after day making jerseys just to pay the next month's rent.
I need a new job.
I want to join a dance studio. I've looked into a few, but haven't really seen any prices yet. I need an hour a week when I can just let out my stresses and feel healthy and get tired because I love my life. I'm just... Well, tired of being tired because of my job. I want to be tired because I'm enjoying my life. I want to be tired because I spent the whole day being crazy with stresses that I can laugh about at the end of the day, not stresses that leave me up at night worrying about losing the only source of income that my little family has right now. I want to be happy. Tired, but happy.
I'm happy when I'm at home.
I'm happy when I'm eating dinner with my husband.
I'm happy when I'm reading my scriptures.
I'm happy when I'm reading Harry Potter.
I'm happy when I'm eating popcorn, curled up on the couch, watching a movie.
I'm happy when I'm with my family.
I'm happy when I'm hanging out with my girlfriends.
I'm happy when I'm singing
I'm happy when I'm talking with my God.
I'm happy when I'm sitting in the bathtub with bubbles half-way up the wall.
I'm happy when I know others are happy.
I'm happy when I'm laughing.
I'm happy when my husband holds my hand when we pray
I'm happy when I can go to sleep knowing that my best friend is laying next to me.
I'm happy knowing that God loves me enough to give me life.
I'm happy when I'm at the temple.
I'm happy when I'm looking at pictures, basking in sweet memories.

Well... I needed that.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Married now

Well, I'm a married woman now! Very happily for 2 WHOLE weeks! :) I know, such a milestone. lol. But it really has been so fun and wonderful. I really do feel like I'm married to my best friend and the greatest man I have ever known. The downside of all this bliss is, I've wanted to go back on our honeymoon since I started work again :(
We went to Southern California and did Disneyland, California Adventure, The Pirate Dinner Adventure, the LA temple, and Santa Monica beach. I want it all back; the food, the fun, everything. I want to get married every weekend so I can celebrate like I did and go on a fun honeymoon like I got to.
The wedding, luncheon, reception, and open house were all amazing and gorgeous. I would have to say that our sealing was my favorite part. I cannot say why, but it was. There is nothing like that feeling.
Everything was just so beautiful! I can't even describe! When I get pictures, I might just end up looking at them every day for the rest of my little life! It made me so happy. I wish I could go back.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Let the pampering BEGIN!

Me and my mom at my bridal shower

I'm starting to feel like a bride :)
Yesterday, I spent 2 hours at the nail salon. Foot and leg massage, salts on my feet, pedicure, and a full set of acrylic nails! Man, I felt like a princess. Then my sister (who is a cosmetologist and doing my hair for the wedding) did an emergency dying session and it turned out great! Then, she did my hair in the french roll I want for the wedding. It's amazing! I'm so excited!
Then, it was my bridal shower! Everyone came (except for one of my college friends *sniffle*) and it was so fun! We ate! We gabbed! We laughed! It was awesome! And I got some great gifts! Got my bowls and plates from Target, mixing bowls, a mixer, muffin pan, hot pads, shelves, and so much more! (I'm trying to recall these off the top of my head, so bear with me! lol)
It was so fun and I'm just so happy!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Can I just say...

How much I
my mom and how totally
she is??!!!
For example, my bridal shower invite (for Arizona):
Pink? Zebra print?
Only two of my FAVORITE things!!!
(If you couldn't tell **winks**)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

The Luckiest

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls
Brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it everyday
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born fifty years before you
In a house on a street where you lived?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize
And I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his nineties
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife; she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong
That I know

That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

Sunday, March 28, 2010


My sweet fiance and I went back up to visit the Burg this weekend! It was a short little road trip but it made me very happy. I love my sweetheart; he is just wonderful. When we started the drive back, he asked me if I had a good time. I smiled and told him that I really did. He then told me that he was so glad I had a good time, because he brought me back to see me happy. He is selfless. I know he loves me when he does things like this. I thought I was kind of helping him since he wanted to get some shots of our favorite places for our wedding video (which he is making himself! How cool is that?! I'm super excited!). But, in all reality, he wanted me to be happy-to find some joy and something to look forward to.
Well, this weekend was a dream! I saw Johannes Brahm's Requiem performed IN GERMAN for the first time in the history of the city of Rexburg. I must say, they did wonderfully! I'm so proud of all my dear friends and former professors that put together this ensemble. I was truly touched by the verses Brahm's chose about the fall, repentance, atonement, and resurrection. I truly felt the spirit of the message it presented.
And then there was the end of the show: I WAS MAULED!!! I FELT LIKE A ROCK STAR! So many hugs, congratulations, hello's, good-bye's... It was just wonderful! I love those people--my people--the Snow-dwellers that became my dearest and best friends.
After that, I visited my old roommates and apartment. It was wonderful, yet odd. It didn't feel like home like it used to. I'm moving further and further away from the thought of going back to BYU-I. I loved it there with all of my heart, but there is so much more for me to do and learn as a wife and a mother.
Then, it was time with my BESTIE FRIEND!!! Oh, how I missed Amy! We stayed up until 3 am talking and laughing and trying desperately to catch up and continued to do so after we woke up the next day. It was so hard leaving, I did everything I could to delay just a little longer. But finally, my sweet Bryan looked at me at about 4 pm and told me it was time to go. I hugged Amy twice. I'm going to miss her, but it won't be long until I see her again.
This weekend was exactly what I needed. I love my sweet fiance. He is my other half.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Life is beautiful :)

There have been a few lessons that I have learned lately.

Lesson #1: ALWAYS look at the bright side.
The first few weeks of the month really weighed down on me. I just felt so... blah. I felt like my life wasn't going to go anywhere. Everyday I would go from project to project, work to home, home to work, church and back, and that was it. It was monotonous. And if you know me, I am NOT particularly the person that enjoys routine. Yes, it is good in some areas of life, but not in all areas. I mean, where's the adventure in that?!
Anyway, it wasn't until I was sitting with my sweet fiance telling him that his life DOESN'T suck and that he really CAN enjoy his job if he changes his attitude that I realized... That's what I needed to change my attitude, too. It was so simple! I just needed to see it somewhere else before I could see how it could change my own life. So, I did just that. I started praying for my co-workers and my boss and for the environment that we could create at work. And, honestly, I am really starting to enjoy my job like I used to! It's amazing what a little change of mind can do for your life!

Lesson #2: NEVER hesitate to talk.
I misunderstood something my sweet fiance and I had briefly talked about while we were dating and it has been nagging at me since we got engaged. My sweet fiance and I talked it out and he told me that he never knew I that I felt that way about the whole situation. I realized again how truly blessed I am to have him. We talked everything out and we are more open about our feelings, what's going through our heads, and even how we communicate.

Lesson #3: ALWAYS trust in God; he'll find a way.
"He'll Make a Way" by Byron J. Smith says it best :)

I know the Lord will make a way!
I know the Lord will make a way! Oh, yes!
If you trust and never doubt, he will bring you out!
I know the Lord will make--
I know the Lord will make--
I know! I know! I know! The Lord will make a way!

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
that saved a soul like me!
His mercy everlasting, his truth endures,
And he sent his son to set me free!
(Repeat first verse)

He's there and He cares for me!
He cares, and He'll set you free!
Trust and never doubt, He will bring you out!
I know the Lord will make--
I know the Lord will make--
I know! I know! I know! The Lord will make a way!

Make a way! Make a way! Lord, make a way!
Make a way! I know he'll-- (repeat)

Altos 1st - Swing down chariot, God will make a way!
Basses 2nd - My Lord, what a mornin', He'll make a way!
Tenors 3rd - I know my Lord will make a way for you!
Sopranos 4th - Trust in Him, He'll show you the way!

Make a way! Make a way! Lord, make a way!
Make a way! Have mercy! (repeat)

I know the Lord will make--
I know the Lord will make--
I know! I know! I know! The Lord will make a way!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Singing again

Bryan and I got into a very deep conversation last night about me. It was so odd at first because I've never talked much to him about my wants and dreams and hopes. I've always been the kind of person that would rather sacrifice everything so that others could be happy. And, with marrying my sweet Bryan, I have become his USC-hoping, film making supporting, book editing, *almost* wife so I can continue doing so when we get married. But yesterday, I started to fall apart at some small things and I couldn't figure out why. So, through all the tears and talking, my sweet Bryan came down with the conclusion that I need to start doing something for me.
It was so hard for me to even talk about myself, I ended up not saying much. But I was finally able to speak out to Bryan about my real dreams after he went along with my list of things I was made to be; a wife, a mom, a supporter, a nurturer... You know, those things.
But he finally got me to break open from my practical mind and tell him everything I wanted. I want to sing with everything in me. I want to praise God for giving me this gift through song and performance. I want to play the piano again. It has been years since I have sat down and just played for me. I miss my old books, my old sheet music... It was everything to me. Now, all I do is work; day to day, hour by hour, just so I can make ends meet and help Bryan get to USC. I'm saving for the wedding and for life after it. Even the wedding stuff I don't really do for myself, I do it for others and their benefit and help. Nothing in my life has been just for me since I went to college.
So, I'm looking into voice lessons again. I have to get these rusty old pipes singing. I'm going to set aside time everyday (probably the half hour after I get home from work) to just sit down in front of the piano and play--just for me.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Counting my blessings yet again.

Today has been in all reality a GOOD day. Haven't had one of those in so long. I'm actually smiling. I cannot describe how happy I am. I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven for my life, my testimony, my family, and my friends. Work was very bearable today--I had plenty to do and left to do it. When I got out of work, I came home and wrote for an hour and I feel like I'm making progress. After that, Aub and I went to Kylie's rehearsal and we brought Bella so she could see the Jellicle Cats. She even got to go on stage and take pictures! It was so fun to see her belief in the reality of the show. Today was just... Good. I haven't had a day like this in a while.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Status Report

Well, I finally gave in and went to the doctor yesterday. Turns out that I had an ear infection and a possibility of strep throat (Vee, before you comment ANYTHING.... IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!!). I'm on antibiotics and he says that I'm totally functional. Yet, all I can feel is the STINKIN' bubble in my ear that makes it throb and hurt soooooooo bad! :P Maybe I'm being a huge baby and whiner, but I DON'T CARE! It hurts! :( And I'm kinda scared that it may not go away because I am stressing out over the wedding and work and life in general. It's terrible :/
But! On the flipside, my parents will be here in just over a week! I'm so excited! I want Mom to come with me to see the florist and to my fitting for my dress. There are things that are still keeping me smiling.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I'm starting to feel the stress.

Between work and planning my wedding, there is not much else that fills my schedule and now I am sick. My sister thinks it has to do with my sinuses since my ears and throat hurt and my nose is running. I wouldn't doubt it. My mother told me some things I should take that might help and it seems like everything I take/do makes only about 1/2 of my symptoms go away.
The hardest part is that work is going to be crazy starting these next few weeks with the new season of sports coming in (i.e. tennis, spring soccer, softball, baseball). My boss keeps telling me to only work half days until I feel better and I've already done that twice. Yet, there is a huge part of me that feels guilty leaving work a few hours early everyday. I need the money and the work needs to be done, ya know? So, tomorrow I'm going to try working a full day and see how my body (namely my head) takes it.
Anyway, back to the title of my entry... I'm pretty sure that my illness is due to my stress. I visited the dentist a few days ago and he said that my TMJ is only going to get worse from the stress of planning my wedding and I've already seen that happen. I don't grind my teeth, I clench them. I find myself rubbing my jaw often because of the pain.
So it starts... The stresses of getting married. I almost wish I could just get married tomorrow and not have to worry about everything. I think most of my stress comes from the fact that I'm planning my wedding from a state away. That was my choice, though. :/ Tough...

Thursday, February 4, 2010

I guess it's been a while

Well, I've been working back at my old job from the summer for about a month now and my sweet fiance got a sales job this last week. We are now back in business! ha! I'm just glad that he has a job now. It was really taking a toll on him because he wasn't being the provider like the man is supposed to be. He really let loose when he spoke in church when he mentioned his job hunt. That day, three people asked for his resume and he had a job within the next 24 hours. God really does answer prayers.
We have 2 appointments to look at silk flowers. We figure that silk would be easier since I'll have my bridals a month ahead and then going back and forth from Arizona and Utah... It just makes it cheaper and easier on us.
I also should have my first fitting with my seamstress in the next week or so. I'm so glad that Gaye offered to do it. I'm just so excited to put it on and give it a feel. I was looking at pictures of Audrey Hepburn and I found a picture of her real wedding dress... Mine is almost exactly like hers! It made my day!

Friday, January 1, 2010

uggghhhhh.... MY LIIIIIFE!!!!

On over a week ago, I sent a transcript request form to BYU-Idaho. When looking into this transcript request, the directions aid that the fastest way to get my transcripts sent to my desired school was to do it online. So, I went to my homepage and requested for them. Naturally, I knew that because I was requesting them around the holidays, it would probably take a while and when the website told me they probably wouldn't be sent until New Year's Eve, I was okay with that. I felt a little better when it said that I wouldn't have to pay postage or anything to get them sent because they would be sent electronically. So, I've been waiting to see if BYU-I has sent them and if BYU has recieved them... Nothing.
I'm a little peeved. I selected the NOW option when sending my transcripts and it guaranteed me that they would be sent YESTERDAY. Yeah, nothing. BYU-Idaho needs to get on their game.