Wednesday, January 26, 2011

And now... we wait

I finished my BYU application. I got accepted to UVU on Monday, but as an out-of-state student. Apparently, I have to have my license and be a registered voter for at least 3 months.
I'll be making phone calls, come April. I'm not paying that much for tuition. That's a little absurd. Especially since I am technically a resident of Utah, but the school just makes you do more crap to qualify. I mean, I've lived here for over a year and I'm married to a resident. And, as a matter of fact, I have proof of BOTH of those--WHO KNEW?!
Ugh. But, it will be done soon enough. Just got to wait it out for a bit.
I think waiting on BYU for a fourth time, though, is going to be the death of me. I know that I want an education. It has been a goal of mine since I decided that I was going to college to actually FINISH with a Bachelor's degree. But, now that I'm here and now that I've seen how much my husband (quite frankly) despises this school... I don't know if I belong there. If anything, I could give it a try for a semester or 2 and then see if I want to leave.
But then again, I have a different personality than my sweet hubby does. I will probably love it.
It's just not exactly right for him.

Know what else we have to wait for? Moving.
Yes, we're pretty set on moving if I don't get into BYU. The apartment we've been looking at is pretty awesome. And it's right down the street from UVU, behind Wal-Mart, and is closer to my work with less crazy hills which means...! I get to ride my bike to work more often :) YAY FOR EXERCISE!

Know what else we have to wait on? Kids.
I had the strangest dream the other night. The only thing I can really remember from that dream is that Bryan and I were in a room together and he was angry at me. He was saying things like, "What are we going to do?!" and "It's too soon!" and "You lied to me!" Then, I lifted up my shirt and said, "Well, I can't really hide it anymore." I'm guessing that in the dream, I was about 16-20 weeks along because I had a nice little baby-bump.
The sad part is, when I woke up... I was so depressed that it wasn't real. That's the first time I've really felt "baby hungry." At that moment, and for a few minutes after, I wanted to be a mom.
I mean, I joke around with Bryan a lot. I'll tease him whenever babies come on the tv or whenever we see cute little kids running around at the store or when there's a baby blessed at church... But that moment was the first REAL moment that I've had where I just wanted a baby.

Know what else we have to wait for? Bryan's W2's
We're worried that his old employers won't get them to us because of one's reputation for being late with EVERYTHING (including pay), and the other not having our new address. **sigh** Hopefully we get it...

I'm done for now.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

I've never been a "New Year's Resolution" type of person

But this year, that's changing.

My sweet husband is a SUPER GOAL MAKER! No really. He is.
Anyway, so I decided that this year I would make a few goals that I know I can attain or at least get close to attaining. I read this talk not too long ago that was pretty awesome. It's called "Go For It!" by M. Russell Ballard. And... I loved it! It really put a new perspective on goal-making for me.
I always felt like if I made a goal, I was more likely to fail. I felt this way with almost every goal I made! (I'm super hard on myself; something I need to work on). But this talk that I read just helped me out so much!
Elder Ballard said that we need to make righteous goals that lift us up, but those goals also need to be ones that we know we can attain.
I needed it in simple terms to realize that I needed the confidence to attain those goals!
I'm retarded. Simply put.
Anyway, I made a few goals. And I'm hoping that I can attain them by the end of this year.